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Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for." -Bob Marley.(:
When you try to be silly and cute at the same time:
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Reality:
Studies show that this blog develops ab muscles due to excessive laughter.
(Source: lmaogtfo)
basically if you don’t talk to me first i’ll never talk to you
(Source: uoa, via letsplayagameofrussionroulettee)
You are the only person who changed my life. The one I can say I actually care about. I love talking to you again I’m just scared to hear that I didn’t mean anything to you when you meant the world to me..
I’m super stressed about school. I hope I pass this year!
The Shittiest Time Of My Life.
Most people think I’m the happiest I’ve been in years but that only because they all see my fake smile. I cant even tell my closest friend how i feel because I’m scared that they’ll use my weaknesses against me just like my so called friends did in the past. I know the friends i have now are not like that but i rather be safe then sorry. I’d rather spill my feelings out on here because i know my friends will never read this. I am so unhappy with the life I’m living. I know that the people I’ve grown really close to notice it and try everything to make me happy but that’s impossible. The more they try the more shitty i feel inside i put a fake smile up for them so they can feel accomplished that they could make me happy for even a few minutes. Even my family notices how unhappy i am and they try everything to make me happy but i just cant. I am so lucky and blessed to have such an amazing family and friends. But even that doesn’t make me happy. It helps but i am so far from being where i should be. My friends try to understand how i feel but i don’t let them in. The only person i let in was Barry. He was such an asshole to me, we fought literally everyday but at the end of the day he always managed to make me happy. The type of happiness that i had never experienced. Yeah other people have made me happy like Kimberly, Danny, Daniel, Leo and everyone else I’m close to but Barry made me happy without even trying. From the moment me and him met it was like magic i connected him so easily. Like if he was meant to be in my life. But of course if you know me you know that i don’t like letting anyone close to me or let them know anything about my personal life but he kept trying unlike everyone else he tried till he got in. He’s the only person who managed to know me, the real me. But i fucked it up. I told my so called friends something and they used it against me in the long run and they fucked up my relationship when everything was going great with him. That made me the most miserable person you can imagine. He doesn’t even speak to me anymore which sucks because as much as i hate to admit it im in love with him. Its been a month since the last time we talked and two months since I’ve seen him and my lifes completely hell. I miss him more and more with time. Everything i do reminds me of him. We did absolutly everything together. he just made me happy and now i lost him. I dont even know how things happen anymore how can a person so unhappy like me get their happiness back. trick question. Most people would say get over it its just a break up but its more then that. I’ve been an unhappy person for a long time now, but now im just a miserable person. I hope time can change the state of mind that i have but from the looks if it its impossible. I hope i see him in my life soon because i know somewhere in my life hes suppose to be in it. I can’t stop listening to the songs he wrote me. His voice is my favorite thing in the world..
